Temperamental

Bury It

2012-01-29T14:50:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, when you gotta give up, you really have to give up....
Cuz the other party ain't giving chance.

HAVE A GREAT CHINESE NEW YEAR!

2012-01-22T01:31:00.001+08:00

It's Chinese New Year's Eve!!!!!!!
I'm always looking forward to CNY as I get to gather with my relatives and get to eat so many goodies! hehe (though it'll be better if Ah Mah's here w us..)

I'm off to bed now, gotta wake up early later :)
GOODNIGHT!

Never a hassle

2012-01-17T02:17:00.001+08:00

Been burning midnight oil for the past few days to rush out my PD.
It is never easy and I've no idea why I always have to be so last minute.
But, I know I do thrive under stress haha!
so it's time to take a step back and look at things from another angle.
I've been doing remarkably well in what I'd decided to do 6 days back.
Gonna stay on course and persevere through! :)

Glow, not

2012-01-12T01:35:00.000+08:00

Many thoughts are running through my mind.
All I wanna know is what I should do after graduation from poly.
I'd decided on Psychology after consulting a few friends.
But Mom was against it cuz she believes that an Uni cert in psychology won't be suffice w so many Professors or Doctorates out there. I shall reconsider my choices later.

Now, it's time for me to be a coward and head to dreamland where everything's grey. Nothing as black and white.

Choked

2012-01-11T01:46:00.004+08:00

*photos after this chunky post*

*a short post at the bottom too*

Field Trip to URA Building at Maxwell Road yesterday!

Took quite a number of photos which I found interesting.

I was also looking forward to having yummy food over @ Maxwell.

However, it was closed for cleaning! :(

Hence, we head over to Chinatown Complex for lunch instead.

Lesson ended at bout 3pm so I went over to Vivo City for, Sherlock Holmes, before meeting the 4 guys from JBP for a good catch-up session over dinner.

Sherlock Holmes was awesome! Scenes of great challenge/display of wit makes this movie worth the price.

and yeah..

back to the story...

2 of them had just enlisted and they look so different now!

Was listening to their various accounts of army life (2 had already completed NS) and it was really interesting. hahaha

I'd learnt a new term from them, "White Horses"

knows what it means?? haha

of cuz, the 2 "laojiaos" never fail to be concerned bout me.

asking if I'm doing well, rs and studies etc.

updated them and they gave me sensible advice.

so...

AWJIACHYI, your KLP in miniature size hehe

AJC your KLP No. 2

does it brings a smile to your face? hehe

I hope it does! ^^

"comes as it comes, goes as it goes"

stay strong! *hugs*

Future Developments??

anybody's childhood colour pencils? haha

Buddha Relic Temple

I guess CNY is arriving thus Chinatown is bustling w activities and I totally like the vibes of it! :)

Can't wait for CNY!!!!! ^^

I'll be happy if you'll get her back cuz I guess you'd missed her or rather had not forgotten her all along.
Seeing that means, I've to face the reality and own up that there's no more chance. ok, all along there isn't.
I hope you'll be a much happier person and I'll be glad for you too.
Not to forget, do take care of yourself by cutting down on your partying habits. It's your body you're hurting.
Lastly, I just wanna you to know, it was my insecurities and faith that kept me holding on for so long. When I know you gonna fight for what you really want, I should let go of that rein that's pulling me back. That's when both you and I will go far.

All the best.

Who are we, to say?

2012-01-08T17:22:00.000+08:00

Argh

2012-01-06T16:36:00.001+08:00

I always prove my friends' trite remarks valid.

Some crystals on my nails had fell off.

I'd repeatedly assured my friends I'll take good care of it as they were sure my nails will be ruined in no time.
Not to mention, today I'd accidentally scraped one off while opening my water bottle and it dropped in. Thank goodness I realised it! haha

Sad life me had hit rock bottom. Rashes are breaking out on my face and I'm so worried.

sighhh hope it'll recover within this few days.......

ANGRY

2012-01-05T00:32:00.001+08:00

and so.... today I'd my nails blinged for CNY! ain't it preeeeeeeetty? hehe
Nonetheless, I bought some clothes for CNY already! I'm like the last in my clique to get my shopping done, feeling so paranoid that I won't have clothes to wear for the lunar new year lollll

oh yeah, I'd a haircut too! Snipped off 4 inches of hair back and front?
I guess there's a huge diff! I'm looking much younger and my dad loves my bangs alot cuz I look less matured and girly!~~
whenever I'd my bangs to the side, he will ask "WHERE'S YOUR STRAIGHT HAIR?!" hahaha so cute
Shall post a photo soon! till then~~ byeeee

LOL 9gag

2012-01-03T12:24:00.003+08:00

Cook munch play

2012-01-03T02:57:00.000+08:00

Things I wanna do this coming 1 month:

1. Make waffles!

2. Go back to my guitar~

I've a couple of songs I wanna play and had found the chords online already!

3. Knit myself a scarf!

I think I can do it if I'm able to stop procrastinating! :)

Literal

2012-01-02T04:42:00.001+08:00

Everything's all so pent-up inside me.
Sensitivity took over me and it made me silly.
I'll do it again if I can.

You'd 2 girls falling so hard, lighting up our lives.
I believe you'll make it worthwhile.

Happy New Year!

2012-01-01T17:26:00.000+08:00

Spent the last day of 2011 with clique and it was a unique way to usher in the New Year w water bombs instead of the crowd! Followed by card games and yeahhhhh

Every year, I'll compose a whole chunk of new year resolutions on this space which I'll forget in a month's time. lollll kinda pointless but I will still do it (keeping it simple though)

2011's resolution:

Be a better person.

I just wanna be a more family and studies-oriented person in total. :)

Last Friday of 2011?

2011-12-30T13:55:00.002+08:00

Gave work a miss and I'm staying home to nurse the hangover I've gotten last night.
Worse night ever, couldn't even remember how I got home.
Yeah of cuz there's the silly stuff I did. #Awkward
Gonna learn and not be so stupid again. I know you guys will be like "yeahyeahyeah, not again -___- sure bo?"
Yeah, I'm damn sure~~
Tomorrow is the 31st and of cuz there'll be drinking.
I'mma drink moderately! ^^

I've no idea why, you're always stuck in my head.
It doesn't work both ways and so, I'mma .......

I shall head back and rest now. byeeee

Serenade

2011-12-29T00:37:00.000+08:00

I'm so fond of One Direction's songs~

They're so beautifully and meaningfully penned.

Safe and Sound- Taylor Swift

2011-12-28T01:54:00.003+08:00

I remember tears streaming down your face
When I said, I'll never let you go
When all those shadows almost killed your light
I remember you said, Don't leave me here alone
But all that's dead and gone and passed tonight

Merry Christmas! :)

2011-12-25T16:51:00.002+08:00

I'd my Christmas eve spent working for the first half of the day and second half w my dear friends. :)

It was good to have them around and the activity we'd for this year was different.

Nonetheless, it was fun which brings about new experience! ( having 9 people squeezed into a car? )

Now that it's Xmas, I'm home resting though I'm actually supposed to be working.

It's nice to stay in with the weather like this :)

Hope you guys will have a great Christmas! ^^

I'd wonder what's wrong

2011-12-24T00:55:00.000+08:00

Why do I feel different?

Let it go!

2011-12-22T00:34:00.001+08:00

Time to throw away those disappointments and insecurities.
I need to get a life already.

1st Goal for 2012: Get my Port-folio done
2nd Goal for 2012: Get my licence by March '12
3rd Goal for 2012: Sleep earlier!

now, I just wanna get drunk #contradicting

I wish you'd do something.

2011-12-19T02:33:00.001+08:00

Totally in love with this photo and my cutie pie niece, Lynna. Her huge sparkling eyes resembles her sister's so much just that it's larger. haha

I just have this soft spot for kids esp babies!
They're so adorable when they'd their fists clenched or when they're having "tummy time"!
Nonetheless, being there as a sister, cousin or auntie as they grows makes me feel contented! After all, it's the growth that makes it memorable isn't it? :)

Not to mention, I'm exceptionally happy when people says I'm motherly. That's the only time, I think being mature-looking is good. ^^

It may sound silly but I do spend time thinking bout the future.

Pondering bout...

will my future husband be a good father?
will I be a good mother to my children providing them w needs and guidance?
will I be able to give them undivided attention?

okay, to some I think I may sound damn absurd already.
it's late and I'm working later on. I shall turn in :)
Goodnight!

♥

2011-12-11T00:00:00.000+08:00

The Mountain from TSO Photography on Vimeo.

This was filmed between the 4th and 11th of April, 2011. It is filmed on Spain’s highest mountain, El Teide.
It is considered to be one of the best places in the world to photograph the stars.
(Reblogged from Audrey)

This post coincides with the eclipse today! ^^

I don't wanna have Xmas or New year. Can I zoom pass and have CNY instead?

2011-12-10T00:00:00.001+08:00

For the whole day I've been looking grumpy/gloomy/quiet and people were asking if I'm fine.

It's all attributed to the lack of sleep but I wonder when will I've time to have sufficient sleep? argh

依然爱你- 王力宏

2011-12-09T12:09:00.001+08:00

一闪一闪亮晶晶留下岁月的痕迹
我的世界的重心依然还是你
一年一年又一年飞逝尽在一转眼
唯一永远不改变是不停的改变
我不像从前的自己你也有点不像你
但在我眼中你的笑依然的美丽
这次只能往前走一个方向顺时钟
不知道还有多久所以要让你懂
我依然爱你就是唯一的退路
我依然珍惜时时刻刻的幸福
你每个呼吸每个动作每个表情
到最后一定会依然爱你
依然爱你依然爱你
我不像从前的自己你也有点不像你
但在我眼中你的笑依然的美丽
这次只能往前走一个方向顺时钟
不知道还有多久所以要让你懂
我依然爱你就是唯一的退路
我依然珍惜时时刻刻的幸福
你每个呼吸每个动作每个表情
到最后一定会依然爱你
依然爱你依然爱你

我依然爱你或许是命中注定
多年之后任何人都无法代替
那些时光是我这一辈子最美好的
那些回忆依然无法忘记
我依然爱你就是唯一的退路
我依然珍惜时时刻刻的幸福
你每个呼吸每个动作每个表情
到最后一定会依然爱你
你每个呼吸每个动作每个表情
到永远一定会依然爱你

Who was that guy?

2011-12-09T00:00:00.001+08:00

Had one of the most mystical dream last night.

I dream of running away from the "dirty things" which was chasing me and a guy actually pulled me away to hide. Meanwhile, as we were hiding, he asked for my left hand and started massaging it. After sometime, I was jolted up from the dream. Didn't think much bout it as I always dream bout those "dirty" stuff till....

I was massaging my wrist (I'd sprained my left wrist quite some time ago and a bone was protruding out slightly thus there was a bump) and realised, the bump is no longer there! I was totally shocked cuz it was still there yesterday! like super omg and I got reminded of the dream. Isn't it amazing??

I told my Mom bout it and she was asking me bout the appearance of the guy which I couldn't remember. hmmmm

and yeah, I'm totally honest bout what had happened and I didn't fabricate anything.

The Calling- Wherever You Go

2011-12-08T13:48:00.001+08:00

So lately, been wondering
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone you'll need love
To light the shadows on your face

If a greater wave shall fall
And fall upon us all
Then between the sand and stone
Could you make it on your own?

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

And maybe, I'll find out
A way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you
Through the darkest of your days

If a great wave shall fall
And fall upon us all
Well then I hope there's someone out there
Who can bring me back to you

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

Run away with my heart
Run away with my hope
Run away with my love

I know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart, in your mind
I'll stay with you for all of time

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way, way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

If I could turn back time
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I'll go wherever you will go
I'll go wherever you will go

Happy 18th Birthday Jiayin!!!!!!! ^^

2011-12-06T12:47:00.001+08:00

Can't wait.

2011-12-05T00:28:00.001+08:00

December gonna be a busy busy month for me.
I'mma make full use of this year's end to do the right things.
Having to juggle between UTs, driving, work, family and friends- I'mma be a superwoman.
People who knows me well enough, will know why I'm trying so hard not to have any breather for this festive month.

and so...
Today was my first day at TH!
It was good with all the guidance from new coll! :) Thankful to have JIACHYIAW who ask them to lookout for me. hehehe ^^

alright, I shall hit the sack soon! school later on!

Cosy

2011-12-02T10:52:00.001+08:00

A Friday which is meant for cuddling and sleeping in. I'm in school~
Can't wait for school to end and meet my clique. :)

2011-11-27T21:56:00.001+08:00

kinda late but I just got hooked onto Vampire Diaries which is heavily addictive. ohmy..

Concern

2011-11-22T14:55:00.001+08:00

Being ill and coming to school is really a combo energy-sucker.

Seriously, I can't wait for the day to end. yawnsssss

2011-11-21T18:09:00.001+08:00

I'm on MC today cuz I was ill.
But I ended up revising at home instead (I tried stealing my sister's cookies too) haha!
This gonna be a super busy week for me~ hmmmm

Do you know all these?

2011-11-17T00:07:00.001+08:00

I've nothing to blog about. Maybe I shall list out a few things bout myself?

1. I've a box where I kept all my precious cards.

E.g. Birthday cards I received since 5 years old? Cuz I love handwritten cards! In my opinion, they're like photographs. They capture down the beautiful moments and well-wishes. They are the stuff that remains the same even when people grows old.

2. I hate peanut butter and I'll shun away when I smell it. Can't even remember when was the last time I'd it.

3. I find guys who sport short and neat hairstyles much more attractive than guys with long manes.

4. I love foot reflexology.

5. I love and know hand sewing, basic knitting and cross-stitching. I do not know how to operate sewing machines though. I wanna learn

6. I'd actually love (Asian) soups more than other food! That explains why my the ladies in the house always call me the Soup girl!

8. I love long car rides.

9. I love Chinese tea like how I love Chinese History!

2011-11-13T04:22:00.001+08:00

She's just like any other girl, better at hiding her feelings.

Osculations

2011-11-12T00:41:00.001+08:00

How's life people!??!!!

Gave school a miss yesterday (Friday) and had 13 hours of sleep. It felt really bad cuz I'm too tired. But I'd promise not to do it again.
School activities have been occupying my time. However, as the weekends approaches, as a steadfast procrastinator, I choose to laze around.
Shall give myself a deadline, the upcoming Monday, to enjoy. After that, I'll start on my work!

Will try to blog again soon :)

Will be Back

2011-11-09T02:25:00.000+08:00

Been really busy with school. I need to take a breather soon. Anybody wanna drive me out for supper and a big bear hug?

You're who you're

2011-11-05T20:02:00.000+08:00

I'd decided to stop posting for some time first.
I need to sort out all my feelings!
Will be back sooooon! :) meanwhile, you guys can ask me questions via formspring! ^^
And yeah, do help me click on my Nuffnang Ads too! Thanks!

Denial

2011-11-05T03:50:00.001+08:00

There are better things in life.

Happy 19th Birthday

2011-11-03T01:18:00.000+08:00

It all started out on Jan '10 (doubt you know the significance) and now, 1 year 10 months had passed. I wasn't spared once again this year as I won't be able to spend this day w you. But nonetheless, I wish you a blessed birthday. Have a good time :)

2011-11-01T23:10:00.001+08:00

it turned out to be so disappointing

Send over/ Roger that!

2011-10-31T15:14:00.001+08:00

30th October was my last day of work over at JBP.
I'd to wear Indian traditional costume as I was the EIC and they'd some Deepavali events going on.
It was my first experience and it turned out quite awesome!
Guests actually praised me for looking sweet and some even wanted to buy the dress from me. hahaha
Took lots of photographs w guests that day and it made my day. :)
The day ended quite fast and soon, it was time for me to knock off.
Felt kinda upset as I didn't managed to see some of my colleagues.
But nonetheless, I'm thankful for the guidance and love they'd showered on me. ^^
I will miss the place!

First Clubbing Experience

2011-10-27T09:27:00.000+08:00

My virgin trip to the club on Tuesday, Eve of Deepavali.
It was kinda alright but may not be my kind of thing.

My Decision

2011-10-22T22:56:00.000+08:00

I've no idea how 'clever' I am, seriously.
I sprained my left wrist months ago and only visited e Sinseh/doc last week.
NOW, I sprained my left foot. :(
Sad or what :(

BLAH

2011-10-20T05:09:00.002+08:00

Monogamy marriage, education for girls, open-minds and advancement of technology are what I'm thankful about for the present and future.

Day 1:

2011-10-15T00:57:00.002+08:00

I stopped doing what I used to do. The stalking and all. It's a good start.
What you love doing, hurts me.
I'd started to build walls around me to protect myself.
If you want to be part of my life, you will have to make e effort.

http://tintedstarmaze.tumblr.com/

Vexed

2011-10-13T21:17:00.001+08:00

Trouble after trouble.
I'm alone here to handle. fuck
can you guys stand in my pov? try to understand me?
Nobody will ever do that.
I give up.

Hindrance

2011-10-13T12:29:00.001+08:00

Just came home from Ah Mah's 1st Death Anniversary prayers.
1 year just flew past like that?
It makes me wonder how much I or rather, all of us, had went through.
Be it the good or tough times.
Does any incident rings in your mind?
Cuz I've a plenty.
Somehow, I wish time can travel faster.
I'll stay young but my mental age increases.

Okay, I've got the feel to fall deep in slumber. yawnnnn

P.S./ I'd rather not be friends so I'll do as I deem fit.

Harsh

2011-10-12T20:36:00.003+08:00

Went to have my eyes checked and placed orders for new contact lenses + spectacles.

And...

There was a white layer of fibre at the centre of my right eye which may be caused by impact.
In my left eye, there was slight water retention.
Sounds pretty bad right and I saw it on the photos too :S

But my optometrist told me that if proper care was taken, it will heal.
Came home and told my parents bout it.
Mom kicked up a big fuss saying she has got 4 kids, it ain't possible to treat all like gems. I gotta take care of myself by staying home more often.
Dad was annoyed. I've no idea was it cuz of what Mom had said or what. He just told me calmly..
"Next time, keep things to yourself. Don't have to go about telling us bout it. It's annoying. You should confide in your friends. Not us. We aren't interested."
Upon hearing that, I've no idea but tears started rolling down.
Is that anything wrong w telling my own parents bout what had happened?
His words stings. I shall keep to myself next time.

Sometimes, I just wish you're here.

0703

2011-10-12T03:06:00.000+08:00

Even w a sprained left wrist, I feel like giving you a punch w my right.

I should continue and let my it grow from a slight displeasure to a major one.

Yep, it'll be good. cuz I'll forget how I feel towards you & you'll feel great.

I shall turn in now. Since I'm gotta be up early later.

Goodnight.

you broke me.

2011-10-10T15:19:00.000+08:00

Should I get Iphone 4s (Siri)?
I want an Iphone so badly cuz it's very convenient! Like a pc on the go~
but, it's kinda lame right when the added function is only the "voice command" and upgraded 8mp camera.
however, I heard it may be the "last version" from the Iphone family...
I needa make a decision~~

Wore my heart upon my sleeve

2011-10-09T01:54:00.000+08:00

Stormy Saturday night and I got home sober.
was so affected just now that I walked from JP under the rain.
now that I'm clear-headed after a cold shower, I'm feeling super good! hehe
okay, I shall go chill now~ ^^

2011-10-08T14:04:00.001+08:00

School started and I already had 2 lessons!

Was pretty manageable and I'm already feeling motivated!

But since it's just the start, I'm gonna enjoy my time before PD starts~

Shall start thinking what I kinda designer I wna be and prep my portfolio..

Spatial design? Product design? Digital Media? etc etc

I think I would be interested in digital media~ designing websites and such.

Any advice? :)

Feel a thing

2011-10-06T00:43:00.001+08:00

Went for my first car practical today!

It was awesome!! I think I'mma book lots of practical soon hehehe ^^

Learnt how to change tyres too. Told dad bout it and he asked me to tell e instructor "my dad does tpt, if tyre punctured, just have to call tyre man and people will fetch me while they fix it" LOLLOL

I feel so good whenever I talk to my dad bout driving~

I hope I'mma do him proud by progressing smoothly and get my licence!

After prac, I met up with T at Gombak and headed for town!

He wanted to shop and w no intention of shopping, I ended up buying a few tops too. hahaha

so shiok and guilty at the same time, I'm jobless alr and I'm still spending :S

I can't wait to find a job alr~

and school is starting in few hours time~

no comments bout it as I don't feel a thing bout school. LOL

all I'm looking forward to are the weekends. ^^

so guys, how was your Wednesday? good? :)

如果我们现在还在一起会是怎样?

2011-10-05T00:52:00.000+08:00

Friends With Benefits just now. My first legal M18 show! *No sneaking in, no excuses!*

That show actually reminds me of No Strings Attached (I watched it in the theatres when I was 17 hahaha)

Friends With Benefits was hilarious and impressive to me.

Both Mila Kunis + Justin Timberlake's body are super hot!!!!!
okay, a funny clip of them on MTV Movie Awards!

okay, random cut off.

I shld sleep now. goodnight!

Welllllll

2011-10-03T14:20:00.002+08:00

Went out for supper last night w one rare kaki. hahaha

Had a nice chat and he taught me e basics to driving like an enthu instructor. LOL

and so, 5th will be my first car prac and I can't wait! ^^

有人要养我吗? 哈哈哈哈

2011-10-01T23:33:00.000+08:00

Tmr, 2nd October 2011 marks my 1st year w JBP.
(Sadly? Happily?) I'm tendering my resignation!
It's requires one month notice~
So if you guys wna come, do come now and you'll still see me there sometimes! :)
I'm so gonna miss some of them over there~
Just like what people always say..
People come and leave. We just gotta accept it!
Old staff left, new staff came. We'd fun, laughter and camaraderie!
But, for me, it's no longer the same.
I feel lazy, I don't have the passion and initiative anymore.
It's getting kinda lifeless since it's like I've nothing to learn anymore..
Apart from that, there are certain things I shouldn't post online. so yeah..
Discussed w my parents, they gave the go-ahead and was quite pleased w my decision.
I'm gonna 'rest' and be jobless for 1 month at most!
I've not stopped working since sec sch. now, maybe time for a rest before looking for jobs..

Anybody wna hire me? haha!

Paper cut

2011-09-30T14:36:00.000+08:00

Been an avid reader of some lovely blogs.
They made me learn, they made me look at things in a different perspective.
Some are still trying hard and I put myself in their shoes.
Even though I'm not feeling good myself bout r/s, I wna give those girls a hug cuz they're all trying to be strong.
I'm at here trying too!
But when things starts to prove me wrong, I gain a valuable insight.
One fine day, I'll stop trying cuz I know it's gna be futile.
I ain't gonna be the one trying when I know it's not going to be reciprocated.

Last night before bed, I teared.
It's been long since I cried (when I'm sober) cuz I believe crying doesn't help matters. It'll just show how weak I am.
I think I held too many things inside and it hurts.
Everyone has been trying so hard to make me forget him.
Scolding me, giving me advices etc. I know their kind intention but I've no idea why, I can't do it.
It's all easier said than done.

Maybe, I'm just here, trying to be myself.
Just let me fall hard and I'll pick myself up some how :)

<3

2011-09-29T14:24:00.002+08:00

had supper just now w mom's mei cai & some other stuff...

and that mei cai is strong enough to bring back memories, cravings & nostalgia.
why is that so?
that mei cai reminds me of Ah Mah & her 拿手好菜.
all that delicious homecook food belonging to the Chuas is gone, nobody knows how to cook as great as her.
soups, veggies, dumplings, stewed meat all 失传.

Can I hold you in my arms?

2011-09-29T14:20:00.003+08:00

Been nagged by Mom to tidy up my study table since ages ago..
So I decided to tidy it up today...
Guess what I found?

I found all the letters & cards K gave me before he went Genting, on Valentines' Day and 1 day after I lost my Iphone.
Read it over and over again, ended up smiling to myself.
It gives me a warm tingling feeling.
I feel happy reading it cuz I was reminiscing the moments we shared. haha so silly of me right?
But back to reality, I know everything is over.

Hence, I kept everything back into my memory box.
Needa keep all these feelings away too.

Can I get you out?

2011-09-28T20:24:00.003+08:00

I'm back from the 3D2N, Year 2 Sem 1 Class chalet @ Pasir Ris Coasta Sands!

It was fun to spend time w the peeps before school (Year 2 Sem 2!) starts.
It was a good bonding session! :)
Had bbq on the 2nd night and it was great~ (minus the part on getting some news bout the time-table. Mood dampened and I went nuts)
so now, I'm home! :)

gotta really take care of myself. didn't had low blood pressure for a few months and it came back last night.
terrible, I thought why am I spinning at the chalet out of a sudden.
luckily I'm better now if not my Mom would be mad.
She was always saying I would fall sick after chalets.
I'mma prove her wrong.

Bookmarks

2011-09-23T12:31:00.000+08:00

Was strolling thru my bookmarks manager and came upon a whole list of sites.

My bookmarks aint some boring list of useless stuff alright!
No shopping sites or whatsoever but....

They are all links related to History of Art / Art of Story. hahaha

The first thing that caught my attn was the link which I first bookmarked.
It was w relation to who are 江南四大才子?
I think I came upon that qns once while watching a tv programme.
It sparked my curiosity so I went to researched bout it.
So interesting hehe & I'd sorta memorised all their background!

Do you guys know who they are? :)

... my 50kg body HAHAHA

2011-09-22T22:59:00.001+08:00

Interesting day at work today!

There were 2 schools who came today and they were all Primary 2 kids.
Kids nowadays are getting smaller and smaller in size. ( mcm malnourished, it's awful)
But they are surprisingly taller and bigger in size and I love them like that!

A few of them actually had a hard time trying to pronounce my name - 'Desiree' (pronounced as: Dare-Sir-Ray)
and they had actually tried their best as I could see..
They came up w weird monikers for me like...
'Dessert-ry', 'Desert-ry', 'Dee-sir-ry' hahaha
normally, I'll get so upset when people couldn't pronounce my name.
but today, I was so amused. hahaha

After work was a tour round e park w Khoo!
He explained to me bout the bird species in Jungle Jewels, African Waterfall and Lory Loft. It was a very good experience cuz I've been going around e park w/o actually knowing what species are those. LOL!

and I love the Purple Glossy Starling (which can be found at African Waterfall Aviary)! The metallic and glossy feathers they've are super attractive~ ^^
*cuz of them, I learnt a new word: Iridescence!

Both experiences made my day! :)

I miss....

2011-09-21T19:51:00.003+08:00

Happy 41st Birthday dearest Papa! ^^

Today's e 2nd last day of work for this holiday!!! ^^

I can't wait for this weekend seriously!

Been having moodswings lately, so ppl, plz don't step on my toes. muahaha

University

2011-09-20T13:19:00.001+08:00

Results are going to be out in 3 days time.

Mom has been constantly asking me since a week ago whether I'm interested to get enrolled into Uni or not.
I told her, I would love to.
Honestly speaking, I would die to get a degree. Nowadays, with a diploma, it can't get me anywhere.
With a degree, it's like a basic necessity to survive in this competitive world.
But, I know for myself, my grades aren't that amazing.
With so many friends around me getting into SIM and NUS..
I'm starting to worry for myself. (kinda late yeah)
I would love to get into NUS! most prestigious, locally.
Ranking 28 at the list of Top Universities in the world!
NTU would be great too! Ranking 58!

Now I'm so hyped up, but, nah, I know my grades really cmi.
Getting excited is useless.
Went googling about all the uni related stuff.
and realised....
I'm super interested in Humanities!
but just by reading the criteria, I wna faint alr.
NTU offers Linguistic and Multilingual Studies, Chinese and English!
totally awesome!
Chinese and English literature are both something I excel in and of cuz, am super interested!

okay, nevermind, I shall prepare and head out to take my BTT now.

Bugs me on

2011-09-19T23:57:00.000+08:00

On a quiescent Monday night, I miss you especially much.
I remember you used to exalt my spirits after school when we meet up.
where were those days?

Any news?

2011-09-18T21:27:00.001+08:00

been a Snowy Owl for the whole of today...
you guys must be curious, why Snowy Owl right?

I've been staying out and up late till dawn.
be it mahjong, work, drinking or whatever.
I feel like I'm so power pac. hahaha

on thursday night, I played overnight mahjong before heading to work for 8.5 hrs.
After work it was time to chill since it's Friday!
Got wasted on beer from Overtime, Starker.
Came home on Saturday morning, woke up in e afternoon and mahjong till night.
Bowled for 2 games> Boon lay for supper> Jiayin's hse to chill> Came home by 4+am> work for 8.5 hrs today.

Don't you think I'm like a superwoman? HAHAHA

The explanation comes now...

I look so drained and my complexion is super bad. My face look pale (as said by many ppl today), lol. that's why!

Time waits for no man, so I left no time to spare and enjoyed myself to the fullest!

Dainty blossoms!

2011-09-15T22:05:00.003+08:00

Anybody wna give me flowers?

Just googled bout the significance of flowers and I want some! hahaha

yes, flowers ain't practical but won't you (girls) get touched if you know the person is tryna convey a msg to you?

I wna get Red Daisies, Forget-me-not, Gerbera, Larkspur Purple, Lilies (any colour), Tulips, Violets, Roses & Sunflowers!!!

check out this link to find out why I set my eyes upon the above few!

http://www.prince.com.sg/meaningofflowers.asp

Bored to tears

2011-09-15T01:00:00.003+08:00

Lack luster life for this week.

I'm staying home on my off days doing practically nothing.
I'll actually go stomping around e hse screaming "I'M BORED, I'M VERY BORED!!!!".
Yes, I really literally go stomping round the hse.
Initially, my mom still spare me her attn.
till late in the afternoon, she can't be bothered anymore.
tell me how!!!
and for the past few days, I've been slping early cuz I've nothing to do. but I'll jolt up suddenly in e middle of night for no reason.
no joke la, it's really terrible cuz I couldn't get back to slp. sighhhh

this entire afternoon, I spent my time watching shows on9 and playing tetris to entertain myself but it's so lifeless!!!!!

sigh.

#boringgirl93

2011-09-14T15:12:00.001+08:00

The gold objects above are found at The Shipwrecked Exhibition, Belitung Wreck. It's been thousands of years but aren't all these pieces resplendent?

The collage is The Universal Tarot by Salvador Dali. There is a total of 10 pieces if you noticed. I'm in love with this gorgeous piece of art.

The piece above may appears to be quite dull and plain but it's the illustrations of verses from Secret Poems- Guillaume Apollinaire by Salvador Dali. Salvador Dali's interpretations were expressed using his own symbols. Amazing isn't it?

As for Vincent Van Gogh's exhibition, they are projections of his artworks.
It's really awe-inspiring.
All his strokes can be seen clearly (magnified) coupled with the background music, it seems like I'd stepped into a different realm.
I was quite reluctant to leave the exhibition hall actually.. but I was rushing for time. so yeah.
It's really good! Strongly recommended!

The exhibitions are still on, you guys may wna go and have a look for yourself! $28 for 3 exhibitions! :)

Welcome back!

2011-09-13T02:42:00.000+08:00

Do you guys love art exhibitions?.. I love them very much!

Last week, I visited 3 exhibitions over at The Art Science Museum; The Shipwrecked, Van Gogh Alive and Dali: Mind of a Genius!

Wanna know more?

Tell you guys more in the next post! hahaha!

2011-09-11T01:34:00.002+08:00

I dreamt of Ah Mah once again few nights ago..

She asked us to burn for her more incense paper as it wasn't enough..

Related to mom bout e dream and it dealt on her that the dream was quite real.

Cuz normally, during Mid Autumn Festival, we won't be burning incense paper for our ancestors..

But since I dreamt of it, I asked mom to prepare.

Whole family helped in rushing the folding of the paper money.

I hope later on, Ah Mah will receive it happily.

Knowing that, we'll always have her in mind.

And, I pray that she's fine over at the other side...

I miss her dearly.

Bon Voyage

2011-09-08T12:00:00.000+08:00

Met Khoo and Huiying over at Jp for dinner after work just now.

Chatted over froyo (yeah, I'd froyo for the first time in my life! LOLLOL)

It was a heart-warming evening, shared so many things while updating each other bout what's going on.

I'd appreciate the fact they gave honest advice/opinions. Just like how my elder cousins would do last time. :)

Hope to have another dinner w them soon before school resumes!

and yeahhhh, poor me has got 4 ulcers in my mouth + an erupting wisdom tooth.

It's giving me so much trouble and pain.

I wasn't able to speak or eat properly. sighhh

aiya, whatever it is, my mood is kinda in the dumps now. can I have some alcohol pls? :)

How Cupid works?

2011-09-05T22:45:00.001+08:00

Today is my 'first' day at work for this holiday!
It was a relatively balmy day with lots of mozzies~~
I bet they'd a very delicious lunch provided by yours truly. lol

I must say working on a week day @ JBP seems fun enough cuz....
No massive crowds- tour season is over for certain countries.
No difficult guest to handle! :D
It was pretty much a breeze~
So.. Time passed quite fast and by 3pm I'd ended my work.
I'm praying for time to travel as fast for these few days too :)

"

Clique's planning on a short getaway in October
I'm interested but.... dad refused to pay for me.
I know it's kinda bad to ask parents to fork out the $$ when I'm already working and I'm the one enjoying (not them)... sigh what to do?

Wanna go overseas so badly esp when so many friends of mine are going abroad for holidays.
sighhhhh I wanna go so many places like how my cousin did. *envious*
aiya but no point getting green with envy too, right?
I gotta work my way up slowly, then I will learn to treasure and understand how is it like! rightright?! ^^

alright this is pretty much a contradicting post. hahaha

hope you guys have a wonderful week ahead! ^^

2011-09-05T00:14:00.003+08:00

3 days of work from tdy till wednesday~~
then I'll be enjoying for a few days.

hmmm guess I will stop posting from wed till next next week.
ciao~

2 weeks I'll take!

2011-09-04T03:54:00.003+08:00

Gonna give my heart a clearance!

I held back my tears for tonight! *pat on own shoulders*
I know I gotta be strong cuz you want me to be strong, I guess.

I took 6 months previously and we got back.

You're still my favorite, remember that.
I'd never once gave you up. I got angry with things you do, deep inside you should know how I feel.
I got hurt but I press on cuz I believe in you, in us.
Always encouraging myself by thinking of the happy moments we shared.
your precious smile I dearly remember..

Maybe, it's really definitely absolutely not gonna work anymore.
From all the signs you give. haha
It's gna be shorter this time round despite the fact that I'm containing so much within me.

I will not think bout it after you leave for your trip.
Cuz I told ya how I feel this night with a fruitless attempt as I expected.
I guess I blew all the chances.

I should start building walls around me.

I'd said my piece from past till present.
I'd pluck up all my courage.

It's time I start receiving.
Cuz' I've nothing left to give anymore..

江蕙- 家后

2011-09-03T02:14:00.001+08:00

This is the mega tear-jerker for me.
When I hear this song, my tears will start to gek there already..
Cuz this song relates my Ah Mah to me very much...
I miss her greatly. It's gna be a year after her departure.
why do time pass so fast? I wna her be back.
We are suppose to celebrate every festival tgt.
Mid autumn is coming, one of her favorite festivals.
Why did she leave us? WHY! FUCK
I'm crying like shit now. FUCKKKK!!!!!
all the memories came flooding. zzzzzzzz

有一日咱若老　找无人甲咱友孝　我会陪你
坐惦椅寮　听你讲少年的时阵　你有外摮
吃好吃丑无计较　怨天怨地嘛袂晓　你的手
我会甲你牵条条　因为我是你的家后

阮将青春嫁置恁兜　阮对少年跟你跟甲老
人情世事已经看透透　有啥人比你卡重要
阮的一生献乎恁兜　才知幸福是吵吵闹闹
等待返去的时阵若到　我会让你先走
因为我会呒甘　放你为我目屎流

有一日咱若老　有媳妇子儿友孝　你若无聊
拿咱的相片　看卡早结婚的时阵　你外缘投
穿好穿丑无计较　怪东怪西嘛袂晓
你的心我会永远记条条　因为我是你的家后

阮将青春嫁置恁兜　阮对少年就跟你跟甲老
人情世事嘛已经看透透　有啥人比你卡重要
阮的一生献乎恁兜　才知幸福是吵吵闹闹
等待返去的时阵若到　你着让我先走
因为我会呒甘　看你为我目屎流

Impetuous girl, I am.

2011-09-01T03:22:00.000+08:00

Mandarin love songs, oldies especially, assuages my rampant thoughts bout negative stuff at night as I slowly drift off to slumberland~

Am still loving you, K.

WORK @ JBP

2011-08-30T23:36:00.007+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Muslim friends! ^^

as it was Raya, most of my malay colleagues took off to celebrate this day thus I was on duty as entrance-in-charge. So, today being a public holiday, JBP was flooded w people.

and I was feeling quite bushed for work as I'd a restless night.
so I'd attempted to make myself look peppy at work by drawing my brows and like usual, had my fringe pinned up.
some colleagues noticed I look kinda different, more mature-looking or more prominent features? lol

But, it didn't really help, initially.

Some colleagues mentioned I was looking rather dazed and flustered in the morning.
Was kinda expected but I didn't know I can be that easily spotted by them.
But luckily as the day progresses, I perked up as throngs of people flooded in.
not to mention, I'm thankful as the I'd more than sufficient manpower with quite a number of experienced colleagues! :)

thereafter work, headed over to Jurong Point for dinner w colleagues! :)
overall, it was relatively a good day with no troublesome guests!

BUT...

The kinda sad part for today?

This will be the last day where I'll get to work with dear Jo.
He's very much a competent guy I admire. His consistency in work and matured outlook really impresseS (notice the S, it's not impresseD) me greatly. Plus, he's very attractive and eloquent~ A bonus: he has got a way with kids! But... his internship gonna end already..

//

I'm off tmr thus I may be staying home or playing mj w clique over at my crib! :)

People, comment me or formspring me!! ^^
xx

formspring.me

2011-08-29T22:50:00.001+08:00

Ask me what you wna know! http://formspring.me/DezzyChua

2011-08-28T20:48:00.001+08:00

When I gotta give up, I will. Esp when things are too disappointing to take.

2011-08-25T01:47:00.002+08:00

3 UTs down 2 more to go!

I know I should be revising but I'm not. lollol.

I'm pretty worried for tmr's module but I'm not doing anything to help. hahaha

instead... I'm studying for my driving evaluation test on Friday.

now, I'm feeling quite nervous and excited at the time..

buddhablessme!

WHAT

2011-08-23T20:50:00.006+08:00

After getting my O level grades, I got into a design course in Republic Polytechnic.

Adults will always stereotype RP even though it ranks third in the local Polytechnics.

However, I'm thankful I got into this poly doing something that's pretty interesting..

Now that 1 and a half years of poly had past in the twinkling of an eye, I'm having my Year 2, Sem 1 Understanding Tests 3 (UT3).
2 papers down, 3 more to go. Hope I won't be struggling for the upcoming papers. :)

how about you guys? bet most of you are having your exams as well?
hope you guys gna do well for the exams!
Thereafter, it's time to enjoy! so just bear with it for this period of time yeah~

anyway, the comment left by an anonymous for my previous post left me thinking..
I should do things to make myself feel btr, which may seem insignificant to some.
I'll learn to appreciate and perceive things in a whole new angle, perhaps?
Hopefully I will! :) Thanks Anonymous! I'd replied to your comment in the prev post. go and have a look! :)

oh yeah, after HOTA UT tdy- I went to open a new bank acct at Woodlands Civic Centre, UOB.

The service sucked!
I'd waited for quite some time, having ended up- completing the process at the Reception itself and depositing the basic sum of money, myself at the ATM. I'm not trying to be mean or demanding. The reason given was that there were too many ppl. but know what? I'm the next in queue alr!

I'm not tryna assume, but why are they giving me the impression that they look down on students? Students can't open new bank acct?..

back to the topic.. plus, couldn't they tell me beforehand? I could had saved up on the waiting time if I've to get it done at the Reception instead of doing it in private. The staff over there had also given us unwanted stares. gosh I was super pissed and ranted aloud purposefully at the Reception when it's 'my turn' ( when my number was shown on the 'digital board').
I commented, 'ah don't bother srsly, don't bother. what for tell me it's my turn when I've to wait for some time having to end up doing it at the Reception. Let others have it. -show fuck face-'
I'm srsly thinking bout lodging a complaint via the email cited on UOB's site. should I? or is it that all UOB outlets are like that? cuz DBS/POSB staff are much more friendlier!

recalling back, I'm still super angry about it. zzz

I gave my whole heart out. Finding it broken to pieces.

2011-08-18T08:54:00.009+08:00

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I wish I could just cry and cry till the time stops.

the anger, the sadness, all the negativity are all stuck inside me.

I'm feeling so terrible.

why whenever I'm upset it gotta be exam or some crucial period?

I can't vent, I can do nuts.

can't believe the guy I love so much, actually did such things.

it's irrational and impulsive of me to confront him.

everybody said it was wrong.

confided in my mom like usual and got I reprimanded.

she thought all along, I'm matured.

she said everyday I seem to be very occupied and thought that I'd gotten over this r/s.

but why such things were to happen to me. She says I'm immature.

she says he's not mine, he can fool around for all he wants.

she scolds me for not being able to put the past behind me.

she ask me why all along, I seem so fine and was so strong in handling everything but failed in doing so.

I wna break down in front of her. but nothing came out.

I wna cry but Idk what's e purpose of crying.

can someone just beat the guts out of me?

What's inside me is killing me.

Can someone just save me? I gotta revise for my UT3s not to be over here being so upset that it's gone.

that's really stupid. fucking stupid! why am so stupid?

fuck! I'm supposed to give up and forget bout everything.

but why even till now, I'm still thinking bout him? why!!!!!!

why should I even be part of his past?
why should I even confront him?
why should I even held my hopes high?
why should I even be forever concerned bout him?
why should I even feel the hurt?

how can someone let go so easily?
why must I be the one feeling so terrible?
I still care and that's dumb of me.
Can I stop caring? Can I?
till this very min, I'm still concerned. can someone just punch me? CANNN!??!!?

now, I understand why ppl resort to drinking.
it makes you pour out everything.
it makes you feel btr.
I needa get a drink.

FUCKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!

Don't be frightened by the pix below! HAHAHA

2011-08-17T13:32:00.003+08:00

all these are just like 1/5 of my camwhore photos hahaha!!
okay, laugh or criticise me for all you want k.
but I'm happy seeing this collage.
it comprised of the photos I took over the time.
from a blonde head > gold w highlights > a redhead if you noticed!
plussss it's been quite sometime since I camwhored! hahaha
byeeee

formspring.me

2011-08-16T22:32:00.001+08:00

Any thing you wna know!? Ask it here! http://formspring.me/DezzyChua

2011-08-14T22:31:00.000+08:00

I AM FEELING SUPER CRANKY.
WHY MUST I EVEN GIVE A DAMN!

okay, on a side note. Ian Fang's (9pm show, Jason?) so attractive plus qing qie. hehe

Fired Straws of Entity

2011-08-14T01:15:00.003+08:00

My head's filled w art, rest yet again art and rest.

Assignments, work are clashed. A bad timing, yes, a bad timing, esp when Time Of The Month came.

Missed Ah Mah's prayers for the first time, gna miss Ah Gong's later.

Unfilial I am, I am unfilial.

gotta reflect.

*BOOM*

I'm gone.

oh yeah before going, I NEED a Hug.
anyone's nice enough to offer me one?
cuz I'm worried, my floaters on my right eye seems to bigger now.
no one to tell, none to bother, I'm to blame anyway.
consultation at NUH is nearing, and I hate to go Hosp alone.
plus that kind of awful service, I'd rather wait till smth goes wrong than get my eyes killed by the doc.
SO I'm not gna go thr and get myself frightened further. o wellllll
one step at a time I guess~~

ciao!

2011-08-13T01:50:00.002+08:00

I WANNA GO OVERSEAS WITH MY FUTURE BOYFRIEND!!!!

ok random bye

Time waits for No Man

2011-08-06T01:51:00.004+08:00

Class Jumpshot at National Library

Thursday was Art Of Story field trip to Arab Street and we'd fun despite the rain! :)

Caught Twisted after class @ Cineleisure.
It isn't a very nice show but good use of flashback. LOL 'study hazard' as an AOS student.
Went straight back to Bugis for steamboat as planned and it was good!
I'd not tried that shop before but I must say the chicken soup base is tastier than its tomyum's!
every thing seems so fresh as compared to La 'Du' Zi (a shop opposite the one we went, pun intended). LOL
love the chat w classmates during dinner!
they'd know all about those HK drama actors, old songs, old singers; it's like we've got so much to talk about! ^^

HSH thereafter!

"

in approx 11hrs time, I'm meeting clique to celebrate Partner @woshiRAY's 19th birthday!
we're gonna go around Singapore for the nice food! 走一走吃一吃！~
maybe, I'll post photos and review afterthat! :)

stay tuned! ^^

GFP DESIREE

2011-07-29T09:46:00.003+08:00

Unagi with sausage, pearl rice and add on, spicy long beans + longan drink & soya bean for breakfast! scrumptious breakfast isn't it! been few days since I'd enjoyed my breakfast. everything tasted so bland, all I'd most of the time was tomyum ban mian ~_____~

so yeah!

Today marks the last problem for P13, 2 more weeks to go and I'm free for a month!
That month is gonna be so precious to me. Shall recharge myself by making full use of the time available!

Plans in mind:

Chiong driving
Chiong work
Spend quality time to read widely, 5 books at least? (lost my reading bug)
Visit art museums! There are many exhibitions I wanna go!!! Terracota Warriors, Van Gogh's etc!
Ample rest

Hopefully I can strike everything off the above list!

Press on guys! 2 MORE WEEEEEEEEKS :)

2011-07-28T15:54:00.001+08:00

I do not know whether you think I'm not the right one for you or whatever.

But never once did I say, you're not the right one.

I'm still holding hope, I'm just trying to give you space and not to expect anything.

I don't even know why you're feeling this way. I wish I know what's going thru your mind.

UPDATE

2011-07-26T01:29:00.001+08:00

Weekends been hell lots of fun w my Clique! they're rly awesome!!!
I'm rly looking forward to the weekends whr I can take a break and just enjoy their company!
but that means a burnt pocket. cuz I've not been working as much..
however, it's so shiok, having not to work!
hahaha, I've been splurging for this entire month and it's time to save soon!

and, I'd registered for driving lessons- manual.
BTT on the 20th Sept. I'm kinda worried bout it but can't wait to get my hands on the PDL and start practical!
still a long way to go but knowing that I'll be able to drive soon pushes me on! ^^

will update soon! :D

18th Birthday!

2011-07-20T23:14:00.000+08:00

I'd a blast and I'm thankful for the people who took the effort to wish me. Love all of you!!

Had actually wanted to post e celebration vid up here too but blogger cmi. \:

I'm happy to say, I'm 18 and I'll learn to be more mature, lady-like, conscientious and am gna study hard! ^^

10.50pm, 70 min to go!

2011-07-19T22:51:00.000+08:00

Ain't gonna let anything affect me!

My awesome bunch of friends! (L)

2011-07-17T15:44:00.001+08:00

Vongolas & Cs' (missing Crystal)! (L)

Not been able to take photos w some of them. but here's a few!

Camellia, Chyi, Yin, Felicia, Jiabao, Ray, Clarie, Nigel!

I'd an awesome day yesterday! and it's all cuz of the clique of friends I have. hehehe

I'd placed reservations over at Mind's Cafe @ Pomo for Happy Hours Package,

so we'd our 'lunch' over there while board gaming.

I must say, the service kinda sucks, had placed reservations for 13 and they gave me 10 pax seats. gotta squeeze like crazy.

next, we top up $6.50 for the lunch (main course) and the portion was epic small.

guys couldn't fill their stomach at all.

Next, their drink. omgzz. Ordered Apple Tea which tasted nothing like Apple Tea.

Idk maybe it's only for that outlet or what, but guess I wouldn't be going back thr anymore.

Thereafter, guys went to collect their shirts and we head over to we meet Camellia.

We had then travel to Tiong Bahru for the Tsechar.

okay, the market's seating was totally inflexible. we've 13 ppl but the fixed tables & chairs can only tolerate 10 ppl at most. gotta borrow chairs from stallholders. lol

but the meal I guess was quite worth it as we ordered quite a lot but e bill ain't a bomb! :)

and eating tsechar was nice, cuz I wanted everyone to eat tgt like a big family & we managed to! ^^

Next up, we went over to Holiday Inn to get our alcohol.

it's Grey Goose & Courvoisier (Black Goose lol) this time round!

and came back to Jurong for our drinking session.

I was glad I drank w my clique instead of others.

they took care of me when I got super wasted.

the guys even waited for me to wake up and sent me home.

thanks all of you!!!

felt so loved! ^^

can't wait for Wednesday to come & I'll be meeting them once again!

loves

148869

2011-07-15T21:26:00.003+08:00

I'm excitedddd!
every yr around this time, I'll be super hyped up!
I'm turning 18 in 5 days time!!! omgggggg, can't believe I'm so old alr.
so afraid that I'll hit the BIG 2 in 2 years time! I'll be so olddddddddd.

the only down side to this year is that, I'll not have Ahmah by my side...
Last yr she was at my hse recuperating and she wished me..
This yr, when I'm gna hit 18, she ain't gna be w me... kinda upset ya. but I believe she'll look after me from above! :)
and on a happier note, I kept the angbao $ she gave me last yr, it's like e most precious prez to me! I'll never use it~ ^^

this year round, I've my family and friends w me and I shall be thankful enough! ^^

why do I bother?

2011-07-13T00:03:00.000+08:00

gna blog happier stuff on this blog and the emotional stuff on the other.
so spot a happier me... soon! ^^
UTs are making a fool out of me this time round.
and I'm rly trying hard to pull thru everyday happily.
so buddhablessme!

Astons & Paradise Dynasty xlb w Clique!

2011-07-11T14:42:00.001+08:00

How not to love my girls? I'm blessed! ^^

2011-07-05T02:15:00.001+08:00

I need to move on.

you show me I rly need to.

No matter how hard it is, how terrible I gna feel.

I will.

cuz, I know you did.

I gave my best, I gave all my love.

I'd done what I could by not giving up.

but, now I got to.

6 mths, 6 mths, 3 mths. a total of 1 yr 3 mths.

I'd tried, I rly did.

I learnt, I experienced, I love.

find a girl, you rly love.

I don't blame you.

I'm not gentle, I'm unladylike, I'm noisy, I'm demanding.

Maybe, it's just a fleeting moment and now you realised it.

it just turned out to be a second time for us to end this.

not a proper ending.

but a proper starting...

for you to start again.

I hope we did had happy moments in which, you'll remember.

cuz, I hold them close to my heart.

I wish I'd the chance to go on a picnic tgt for at least once, but we nvr did.

I wish I could see you kayak, but I nvr did.

all the precious moments we missed..

and yes, it's been sometime since I let go of myself.

I told you, I'll nvr cry for you again.

and I did, tonight.

I didn't feel btr.

Perhaps....

I'm just a phase, a passer by who happened to pop by.

All the best, my love.

I got to learn how to love myself

2011-07-05T00:42:00.013+08:00

taken last yr, on my 17th.
smiling so happily.
I wish I can put the latest photo we took.
but I can't find any. we hadn't taken any tgt after we reconciled.. 070310, 070311.
both dates I dearly remember..

Time to continue w revision for HOTA! :)

2011-07-04T13:14:00.002+08:00

edited 11.05pm/

Needa control my EQ. Hence, I removed the post.
I feel so bad even till now for the grading.
But, I must learn to accept. That's what I told myself.
A lesson to learn.
Only with a minor downfall, I'll learn and push myself further.
Nothing's gna pull me down.
I'll be btr. ;)

Thanks for all the concern from my dearest classmates ! :)
awesome bunch of ppl! <3
I'd filled my stomach w awesome food and I'm geared up!
and sorry grp mates for partialling. I'll not let such things affect me again!

Cheers!

Envious

2011-07-03T21:03:00.004+08:00

gna be a packeddddddd week. UT2 is starting.
I'm tensed. I'm afraid I'll do badly if not, I'm afraid I'll fail to cope.
ah, all the best to ppl out there taking exams and myself.

hmmm, I'm rly wondering.
what's your motive?
do you rly wna me to move on that much? rly?
If you wna me to, just tell me.
It's btr than having myself, pondering over your actions.
It sucks.
Feelings for you and your actions left me a big qns mark.

I wish to get that high on alcohol like the one we'd at Rivervalley (was it Rivervalley??)

at least, I held my partner's hands. I felt concern when I was rly down.

Maybe, I need a dose of that after my UTs.

ohyeah. just a note. I'm not a frequent drinker nor an alcoholic.

I want a happy birthday.
I still rmb last yr's. I cried madly despite all the well wishes cuz you told me off just as the clock struck 12. it felt so bad. I nvr wna go thru such a bday again.
I just wish this yr's gna be btr. I want to have a Happy 18th w all my love ones, possible?
are you gna be one of them?

insecurities creeping in once again........