i guess im having my worst case of pms yesterday, and i vented all on Boyf.
he was totally pissed, i dunno what to do mans...

everything in school is alright,
but slowly i dun feel like myself. im feeling so weird & uncomfortable.
i feel so, all cos i think tht im no longer like the used to be Siyun?
cant play and enjoy tht much?
no more fooling around, sleeping in class or sleeping and returning home late..
last yr, i dun pay attention in class, i slept in class, i sleeps at 3plus and returns home late..
now, i tries to pay attention in class, not sleeping in class, sleeps at bloody 12plus(!) and returns home early. ):
doing all these things makes me feel so weird and yesterday while i was pissed, i recalled all these things. making me damn frustrated. all these aint me, but im forcing myself to be just cos of studies. and, if i dun well for my o levels this yr. i'll rly die. i dun wanna be like sis, work so hard and get nothing like my expectations.
all these rly sucks.

i feel so uncomfortable not doing all these things.