posting photos soon.

back home from bbq at 8heads and soccer field.
a rather eventful day.

i havent been rly happy till afternoon.
but, night.
im told Boyf. is to serve army for this weekend and book out on Sunday, book in on Sunday too.
it's rly taxing for me. i feel horrible.
i've havent been spending quality time w him bout going 1 month alr.
so much things kept within myself.
bursting...
im just so upset.
why must it be consecutive weeks?
im learning to be independent.
and, im looking forward to the "reward" this week.
but, you're only free on this Sunday for a few hours.
to me it's insufficient.
ohgod, damn me.
now, i shld learn and practise both of being independent and be content w what i've.
it's so damn tough.
help~

i need a shoulder badly for me to burst out my emotions and tears, anyone will do.
out of the blue, i feel so emotional.
a shoulder, just a shoulder for me to cry and rant..
feeling weak both exterior and interior.