disappointed

alright, O level MT.
what a day.
momma didnt wake me up.
hence, i was nearly late for my paper.
luckily, Teckkwang called me up.
cabbed to sch.
realised didnt bring identification.
called momma.
she cabbed to sch.
but, gave me my birthcert. -.-
which obviously cannot be use.
so, the sch printed me smth. -.-
took the paper.
paper 1, no confidence.
paper 2, no comments.
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it's so disappointing.
went for parents' meeting.
the comments were so sucky.
the stupid Mrs Baljit.
complain till -.-
say i keep sleeping in class.
what should throw away the internet. zz
then, mom keep agreeing w the teachers.
say what she know me well.
she knows im always sleeping in class.

sat there feeling so pathetic. zz, first parents' meeting tht made me feel so zz..
my results is hardcore lousy.
who can i blame but myself?
i cant do much either. zz.
might as well just flunk all and retake next yr. zz.

then, Camellia told me tht i got whole sec 4 cohort 3rd for MT.
supposedly, momma and i should be happy right.
im quite happy for it.
but, when i told momma bout it.
my mood just drop like one fuck like tht.
she say what she's not interested.
cuz, it's MT. and, it's a passed sub.
she's only interested in math and sci.
oh fuck la.
get gd grades for other subj jiu like tht.
cant she be glad for me bout it too?
jitao sian whole for me.
maybe if i get a C for Os she wont mind also?
since, it's a pass?
and, i totally had no confidence in the paper when the day alr started off like shit.
fuck.