dare not watch full Ah Mah's funeral vid till last night.
cried damn hard & was in an irritable mood.
siblings came in & i lashed out at them for idk why.
Siqi saw what i was watching & heard e music,
she went off, afraid to be reminded of it.
i guess all this just tell me that it's still too hard to accept. argh

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imma find ppl to cover me for sat.
it's Ah Mah's 49 days. \:

-mixed feelingggggssssssssss-

edit 11.16pm/

my mood is in the dumps.
i wna be there for you when you're feeling down/stress/negative.
however, it seems like no matter how i try, i'll never reach you.
hopeless.