I'm trying my best to churn out a proper post.
But sorry uh, I've nothing to post bout.
Lifeless these days, I guess it is this week to be exact.
I'm only working 2 days.. Didnt know that I'd crossed out so many days. -_-

went to read my archive and came upon the may 3rd 2010 post.
it's w relevance to my Ah Mah's bday..
recall back bout her wishes for the family, makes me feel so sad..
to add on, everybody's like so happy celebrating for her.
wishing her w gd health and longevity..
however, apparently wishes don't come thru...

it set me thinking how come there's smth call 11.11am/pm, bday wish or whatever heck wishes..
it's only a lie, a dream, a fictional entity that things we wish will come thru which makes us happier at the least.
but grabbing on to the hope that the wish will come thru makes me regret harder.
Regret for believing in it.
I'll vividly rmb that time, making sure I don't miss 11.11am/pm,
to wish for Ah Mah's gd health, hoping it will rly help when her health took a bad turn.
apparently, all my wishes were never granted.
Ah Mah left us so fast.
I'll never believe in wishes anymore.
Even if I wish, I'll wish for smth I'm sure it'll happen if not the oppo and not pin any hope on it.
wishes will never come thru, it's only luck if it happens.
I'll hold strongly to the faith that for what I work and strive hard for then I'll dare to hope for the best. NEVER EVER a wish.

wish is a nice word, but never a word for me.
-'- wish.
ppl tell me bout wishes, I'll have no comments.