life come and pass in a fleeting moment.
growth, prime, sickness, death.
over an average span of 70 yrs?
it's never sufficient for me.
I'd never want anybody whether it's my loved ones or not to leave me.
I'll feel super helpless and guilty.
cuz I didnt live a great 18 yrs of my life, loving and caring more bout ppl.
after that, I'll procrastinate and heck whatever thoughts I've in mind previously till another living is gone..

I believe my life is encompassed w good-hearted people.
sometimes along the way, they just cocked up and commit bad things.
then when death comes along, every thing dissipates..

I stepped on a snail at the wake just now, I heard a crack and lifted my foot.
all the guilt flushes in.
it's my first time, I feel so terrible cuz I killed a life.
but mom told me "da ji da li"
bf told me "it's alright, nothing will happen.."
but I don't feel gd, cuz I killed smth myself when it shouldnt had died like that.
arghhhhh

I should reflect.