Paper cut

Been an avid reader of some lovely blogs.
They made me learn, they made me look at things in a different perspective.
Some are still trying hard and I put myself in their shoes.
Even though I'm not feeling good myself bout r/s, I wna give those girls a hug cuz they're all trying to be strong.
I'm at here trying too!
But when things starts to prove me wrong, I gain a valuable insight.
One fine day, I'll stop trying cuz I know it's gna be futile.
I ain't gonna be the one trying when I know it's not going to be reciprocated.

Last night before bed, I teared.
It's been long since I cried (when I'm sober) cuz I believe crying doesn't help matters. It'll just show how weak I am.
I think I held too many things inside and it hurts.
Everyone has been trying so hard to make me forget him.
Scolding me, giving me advices etc. I know their kind intention but I've no idea why, I can't do it.
It's all easier said than done.

Maybe, I'm just here, trying to be myself.
Just let me fall hard and I'll pick myself up some how :)


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